相遇：你是如此温柔

---黄莺作品自述

作为一位从事艺术创作的人，我理解的艺术应该是一个精神层面上的、可以跨越任何界限、不受人性限制的、能够释放自己的自由国度。

我一直很喜欢旅行，旅途中拍摄很多照片。在整理旅行时的照片时，我发现自己的记忆实际上也在重新组合，在这个过程中，信息会发生转换。记忆像碎片一样，似乎它们是不可靠的，是随着时间和心情变化的，是被选择的遗忘。

所以这些被相机记录下来的照片是被我的记忆在选择，画面不是凝固的，而且像思维一样闪动、跳跃和变幻。

我不再满足于创造具象影像，而是试图寻找记忆、感受、环境之间一种无处不在无法言传的微妙联系，从常规的视觉陷阱里跳出来，去深入和拓展我内心世界和外在现实的相互感应。

我根据自己脑海中记忆的形象，结合现实的照片，首先拼贴出我心中的公共景象，这个公共景象成为了我的信息宝库。通过电脑的帮助，我试着去抽取每一列的单独像素，将它们在时间轴上无限延伸，它们精妙的色彩变幻呈现出好像我的脑电波一样的幻境，没有固定的形态却又和感官相互呼应。

将这些色彩的电波进一步通过电脑程序生成变化，试图建立自己内心丰富变化的感受与原始的外在固态景象之间的关联时，我逐渐抽离出一个能够更好表达我的内心情感的方式，这个方式是如此的富于变化，复杂而又单纯，微妙而又深邃，似乎将我内心的世界缓慢而又浓郁的伸展和弥漫出来。情感、欲望、焦虑、伤害、宁静、疯狂。。。我无法把握的内心细腻变化，通过探寻记忆的密码，奇妙的被电脑重新编码，呈现出一个我事先无法预料，却又似成相识的重逢景象。

我喜欢那种静静的、但能把人吸进去的力量，像是一个欲望的黑洞，它引诱你，让你充满探寻的欲望，同时你会感到一种无形的危险充满在周围，而你又没有办法让自己停下来。你徘徊在悬崖边，挣扎、抗争，同时你却又有纵身一跃的欲望！

我与我的作品的相遇也是与当代世界、与生存环境、与有着共同感知经验的人的相遇，我们分享的是以一种新的语言和编码来揭示人与整体环境的新关系。

黄莺

2013年8月

Encounter: You are so tender

---Self-description of Huang Ying's recent works

As a person working on artistic creation, the art I understand is the free kingdom at the spiritual level crossing boundaries, releasing oneself and unlimited by humanity .

I always like traveling and taking photographs along the journey. While sorting out the photos in the journey, I find that my memory reorganizes at the same time in fact. And during this process, the information will transform. The memory is like the fragment, and it seems to be unreliable, which would change by the time and mood and be selectively forgotten.

As a result, the photos taken by camera are selected by my memory with vitality and energy like thought, but not freezing like pictures.

I am no longer satisfied with creating figurative image, but try to find out the subtle connection between memory, feeling and environment, which could be found almost everywhere and couldn’t be explained in words. Jumping out of the regular visual trap, I explore the interaction between my inner world and outer reality.

According to the image in my memory and with the photograph in daily lives, I firstly stick out the public image in my mind, being mine information database. With the help of the computer, I attempt to extract the single pixel of each column, making them extend unlimited on the timeline. They represent the splendid colors, which is like the dreamland of my brain wave without fixed form and correspondence of sense organs.

I put these colorful waves into the computer programs and generating changes, trying to establish the relationship between the abundant feelings inside my heart with the primitive outer images. During this course, I gradually sort out one way that could better express my inner feelings. This way is so changeable, complex but simple, delicate but deep. By this way, my inner world is extended slowly and strongly. I could not command those delicate changes of feelings, emotions, anxiety, harm, peace and madness. By searching the codes of memory and recoding of the computers, the result represents the image to me, which can’t be anticipated but is familiar to me.

I enjoy the quiet power but could appeal to someone just like the black hole of desire. It tempts you and lets you explore. However, you would sense invisible danger around you, but you just couldn’t stop yourself. It’s like you wandering by the cliff, struggling and fighting. And you also want to jump!

The encounter of me with my works is the encounter of modern world, the living environment and people with the same sense experience. What we share is the new relationship between human and the total environment with new language and codes.

Huang Ying    2013/08